hi all i had juz finishing my E-learning i am now darm sad feelling like crying out.... juz receive a cal from hwee sian she say tat xiuping lky jherzon more than mi ... and she say tat i maybe stand no chance i am veri sad....... soon ltr at 12.00 i going to camp before tat bount 9.40 i cal xiuping using weihao no. after all she gt answer the phone but when soon i say tat i am weineng she immediately hang up(tis is not funny) i try to cal again but to no avail... going to the camp soon i hope tat it can help mi to clear my mind i relai cant take it anymore words from jherzon maybe u see tat the outer mi might be strong and flirter but maybe inner is better....... i am positive toward serious realationship but negatively if i am veri sad i might cut myself... i had cut myself before ---seriously.... i onli dun wan to tell coz i am scared ppl might cal mi crazy or .... i try to solve problem by somking... but i cant... coz i try to think positive...... i admit tat i take puff of smoke before but tat is onli few days ago now i had stop i did not wan xiuping say tat i am a bad guy or..... soon after i had swear to god tat i must had her i try to change.. i did not scold any vulgarites and bad words le bye now i going to atc le byebye



going atc wif a sad heart wonder if i can pass through the challenge